The Struggle to Sustain a Sustainable Lifestyle

Ever since I got ‘woke’, I’ve been striving to beat the system and live a sustainable life.

In my head, that looks like growing my own vegetables and fruits, trading mine with others in the community, eating said vegetables and fruits, compost any unusable food scrap, living a zero waste lifestyle, write books and not have to depend so much on money.

Of course, that’s an unattainable utopia.

But at the same time, I know it’s possible to live an off-grid sustainable life right now.

All I need is some (a lot of) money to acquire land for that dream to come true.

(or you know… you could live and work on someone else’s organic permaculture farm first…)

Blaming on how I was brought up, knowing I wouldn’t be able to last long if I go straight into it, is one major reason why I’m holding back the reins.


I don’t know if you’ve experienced this before or if it’s just me but have you ever…

Ordered an iced drink at a mamak or restaurant, asked to not put straw in the cup but it came with a plastic straw anyway?

Or been insisted plastic bag for your loose grocery items when you’ve clearly said you don’t want one?

Or perhaps you’ve struggled to say no to that deliciously-looking free food which contains meat/dairy/eggs?

You’re not alone if you feel like such a hypocrite.

I’ve recently come to terms with my own hypocrisy.

I realised that although I’ve been steadfast in eating plant-based foods and I have been actively saying no to plastic bags and straws, I still use disposable pads.

I still drive to work.

I still put waste into landfills.


Repeat after me:

It’s. Okay.

IT. IS. O. K.

I know, I know… we want to strive for the best and even achieve the perfection that’s crafted by our tiny brilliant mind.

But it’s simply not feasible to be perfect in this imperfect world. A world that is not even collectively aligned with your ideals.

I received several messages from concerned friends when I posted my thoughts on my IG story.

They reminded me that at least I’m trying my best and every bit counts.

Yes, we can be our worse critic but we need to take a step back and realise that we are doing our best each day.

My friend, Nikki, reminded me that “we need lots of people doing their best rather than everyone being perfect”.

In other words, we need more people making small changes to inspire others into making small changes, which in the long-run gives a compounding effect that contributes to positive change.